The Occasional Solipsist

So my ever-lovin' wife has just entered her 10th lunar month, or so the e-newsletter I just got has informed me.

I cannot believe that she is going to give birth in the next month. We used to talk about having a baby and it always seemed like it was something we were going to do later. Nothing ever more concrete than a ubiquitous later.

But I just can't believe how fast nine months (ok, eight) can go by when you're supposed to be keeping track of them. Monthly, then bi-weekly doctor's visits, weekly pre-natal classes.

It feels like we were saying later only yesterday.

Weird. Eh?

But aside from wanting Superwife to stay pregnant because she is so damned happy all the time (seriously), I can't wait to be a Dad.

Having another person in our lives that we can interact with, and teach, and learn from, and will afford us an entirely different view of the world, as its seen from his/her eyes.

As much as I imagine it will be very hard at times, I already know how I'll feel about it. How much I already feel, and the baby isn't even born yet.

Amazing feeling.

It's funny how comfortable I am with the idea of being a Dad. Most of the stuff I've read in the reams of baby literature I have suggests that a lot of guys are usually losing it at this point in the game. I can honestly say that I'm not. I don't think I've ever looked forward to something so much in my life.

Fuck, you'd think I was the only guy to ever become a Dad.

And speaking of the baby's mp3 player (currently comfortably strapped to Mommy's belly), which I of course wasn't, I'll have to remember to put 'Ping Island/Lightning Strike Rescue Op' into the mp3 player for that kid. Really cool sound track I'm listening to as I write this from Bill Murray's Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou. Good fuckin' movie too, as Cooley would say.

But I may have to lose the 'Ride the Lightning' to make room for it. Not sure if babybrown will miss it, but there'll be plenty of time for him/her to grow out the hair and hate us later, right?

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